Thursday, 25 November 2010

Check out my bedroom wallpapers!

I really love... LAURA ASHLEY!!!

Featuring Laura Ashley "Hawthorne" wallpaper in linen and charcoal, and sunburst mirror :-) And no, you can't get the boy and the toys from the store.

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Sunday, 21 November 2010

So, he changed....

It's been 2 months now since my husband is gone. I am counting down in less than 5 weeks my husband will be here in common ground!
No doubt there is a lot of changes need to be made around our life since he left. Normally I would share housework with him, talk to him before bed, chat with him while do some cooking together, pray together with him, share some thoughts on God's word, spend weekends walking in the park together and push my son on his bicycle or swings and sang some special in church on sunday.

And I have to admit, when I come to think about it all... it is not easy to deliberaltely choose to let go some precious moment like that. It's hard for me, who is an adult. I imagine how hard could that be for my son - who barely understand what's going on.

He usually has his dad pushes his swings, chase him in the park, fly kite together, wrestle on his bed, read him books before he sleeps, soak in the bath tub and have father and son chat. None of that would have happen now.

I often wonder what he thinks, what he feels inside his little mind. Does he miss his dad? Is he confused?

I must say Josiah has adapt fabulously to change of lifestyle. Eversince his dad's gone, Josiah suddenly realise that he often left alone while I tried to sort of dinner or laundry. He suddenly realise both of us has to run errands together, to the post office, grocery store, school, church - whether it is rain or shine, hot or freezing cold, whether he likes it or not. He realise that no one will be able to carry him anymore since my hand normally pretty occupied with his schoolbags, my own bag, or even grocery bags. He realise that he had to go bed without me reading him books at times because I was just so tired. He realise he can't be very picky about what to eat or when to eat because I only have time to cook him 1 type of food a day. He realise that he need to go to bed on his own because I will still have long to do list when it was his time for bed. He realise he had to sit quietly alone in church since I played the piano during the service. He realise we won't go to the park as often now, because saturday is my day to catch up with a lot of homework that I can't do on weekday. In fact for the past 2 months we had not eat out, had not play swings not bicycle.
How can I not feel sorry for my son?

But, isn't it life is hard, there's when we learn from it.
I praise my son for not complaining about what happens around him, instead he changed himself for the better.
He determined to learn to read, so he can read books before he goes to bed. He helped me putting in laundry, picking up his toys, so that I can finish up my chores faster and we had time for cuddles. He said to himself that all food taste good and therefore he should give it a try. He decide to learn to open fridge so he won't bother me too much if he need some comfort snack since dinner is late. He took 100 page story book so that he can sit quietly in church. He decided he'll help me to carry grocery bag or his school bag. He decide that he needs to put on his own trousers, socks and shoes (although it took him about 20 minutes!). He decide to take pleasure helping me cooking instead playing in the park or riding his bike.
He decided to be happy and just enjoy his life and be content.

I just can thank my Lord for giving me such a soul.
I am just so proud to watching growing up.
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Monday, 15 November 2010

At last, a written post!

Yes, one of this day I told myself I will write my thought on the blog and never get round to it.
It's been quiet and busy week at the same time. I am loaded with juggling among household chores, school run, tuition run, and work! Yes I almost forgot I still have work to do.

Thank you for all the prayer, my husband continues to enjoys his work tremendously, and my son really doing well in school. I can't never be happier to watch people I love smile :-)
On other side of the note, my parents in law calling me pretty often now. I am "pleasantly" surprised with their effort and concern. Strange enough that my husband absence really knit me well into his family, now that I can comfortably talk to them for quite a long time about... anything.

Few weeks ago, I make a new acquintances, a few other mums from Josiah's school. Having send my boy to fee-paying school, I am truly aware who I might met. So, not long after that a lunch invitation arrive. I am a bit apprehensive at first because few of my colleagues who sent her kids to private school did told me about "a lot of show off" going on during this kind of events.
No doubt none of my new friends have a house with a number!! When I arrive at her house, it was a £1.1 millon pound worth of 6 bedroom cottage with massive garden. Mind you, she does not even work at the moment.
But thankfully, this bunch of people with no house number that I've met, none of them sounded arrogant or look down at me (because I still need to work, and they don't). In fact, they proudly said they still enjoy macDonald as a type of luxury since they hardly eat out.... and they even sort of joking about their husband job (one of them was a director of food chain company, his wife said he smell like fish all the time. Just like fish and chip seller really, only with more salary).
The bottom line is, I am glad I came to the lunch!

The other day me and Josiah have a chat.
I asked him : "Josiah, where does the milk come from?"
Josiah : "Cow."
Me : "Now.... where does the eggs come from?"
Josiah : "Chicken!"
Me : "This is the difficult one, where does the chicken come from?"
Josiah :
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finally after a long pause he said : "Sainsbury!"



fyi : Sainsbury is a grocery store equivalent to wallmart in US or NTUC in singapore.

Saturday, 13 November 2010

Splendid Sunday...!!!

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May You have a blessed Sunday!

Monday, 8 November 2010

Love one another

For this past few weeks both me and my husband has been exchanging stories about our colleagues. There is not much interesting story on my side, I guess as engineer; life is pretty... stagnant and predictable.

However, his office is very different to mine. Working long hours, hang out with other high performer colleague, no work/life balance and high pay in relatively young crowds is a good recipe to... unfaithfullness - in some married man/woman.

I have to say I am very fortunate that it's not me who kept my husband faithful, but someone much more powerful than me - the Lord Jesus.

So, I found this prayer in website, and may this be a blessing to all of you.


Lord, be in this marriage
In a special way,
May we feel Your presence
Each and every day.

Grant us both good humor
To surpass our coming years;
May there always be much laughter,
May there always be less tears.

Give us strength and courage
To follow in Your will,
To trust You in the valley
As we do upon the hill.

Give us both the eyes of love
So we'll always see
The goodness in each other,
Secure us, Lord, in Thee.

Give us words of kindness, Lord,
Help us both to live
So our lips are ever quick
In saying, "I forgive."

Give us hearts that beat as one,
Bind us ever near;
May our love grow deeper, Lord,
With each passing year.

Lord, be in this marriage,
Keep our love brand new;
May we love each other, Lord,
The same way that *You* do.

--Connie

"What therefore God hath joined together,
let not man put asunder."
(Matthew 19:6b, KJV)

Wednesday, 3 November 2010

Reminder

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When I saw this maple tree blushed in redness like blood, I am reminded what my Lord has done for me...